The Echoes Of Yesterday

Trigger Warnings : suicidal ideation, depression

Drowning never felt so safe,
Your gasps for air muffle the ambiguous thoughts,
Arms flailing to survive the chafe,
At least your body wishes to live.
Water engulfs your ears but the white noise won’t smother,
The cries of the promises you’ve let decay,
Or the avid disappointment of your mother,
You lay and bathe with me,
The filth of the echoes of yesterday
I caress you and breathe your breath,
“Tuck me in the space between your heart” I say,
For dying is one thing but this feels like a thousand deaths,
To live amongst shards of broken dreams
I come closer, you know it’ll hurt and you oblige,
You’re so brave because you know you deserve it,
Or a coward because you can’t look them in the eye,
There’s only us left now
All your make belief plans to change,
Half-read books and unwashed clothes,
You’ll fill the void with hopes to rearrange,
But all the roads you take come back to me
Your sweet despair, your unconditional demise,
So lay down my darling, honour me with your burden,
For I’m the only one willing to take it,
I’m not surprised by your slump, I was certain,
This was destiny my dear,
It just took a while for you to succumb
When the water suffocates you, you’ll feel more at home,
And in this tub, will lie the ghost of you and me
They’ll find you here in a week, all alone,
Funny thing is, even in your perish, I’ll remain